onemomslife

Hi, I am a mother of three beautiful children.A son that is twelve, and two daughters that are seven, and two. I am married going on nine years, to a good man.Just last year i quit my job to spend more time with my kids and find something closer to home.Unfortunately I did not see the economy getting as bad as it is.My life as a mother has its ups and downs.I know that’s sounds horrible, but that’s why im here, to be honest and share my story.I love my kids with all my heart, i would not know what to do with out them.Never the less there are time where i think “what if”.What if i waited to have children, would my life be more fulfilled, would i not what so desperately want more time for me?You hear alot of people and even Doctor say that you have to make time, and some people may,but it is alot harder then it sounds.Maybe its just me, but on a day to day basis i am a mom and a wife, but i don’t know where ”I” went.

My husbands job requires him to work many hours, so it seems he is at work more then he is home.To him I know he is doing it for his family, and this may be selfish but i need him home more.I know we need the money,especially that im not working, but I need him to. Is that selfish? I love him with all my heart, and i realize after, but sometimes I can be cruel.Instead of telling him how I feel I just assume he would rather be working then spending time with his family.In my heart i know that’s not true, again I’m trying to be honest here.In all honesty, i wonder if I’m so mean if that is the case,is work easier then dealing with a nagging wife?

Even though i realize these things it doesn’t make things easier.I know I should communicate more with my husband, but i don’t want to risk getting into an argument.I know I love my kids, and should cherish every moment with them.Why do I feel this way.

I would love some input from moms like me!In furture blogs, I will share some of things that help me through some of these feeling, and what I’ve done and will try doing to fix them.

Also, this will not all be so serious.I also will share some of the thing I do or learn about doing as a family.Fun stuff, we all need that.

Thank you so much for taking the time to read my blog.

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